30 DLC: Day 17- Someone from your childhood

To someone from my childhood:

There are many dear friends and acquaintances from my childhood, but I feel the need to write this specific girl a letter.

I've known you for 15 years and though you and I haven't always gotten along, we are still close. Recently, a tragic event occurred and you lost your brother. Your brother was like my brother. I've watched him grow up and become a nuisance, a pest, a bother, then a young man, a college student, an intellectual, and then an adult. You and I have always lived very parallel lives and I am always here for you. I miss you and I know when you go off to Alabama for school, you'll be dealing with a lot of weight on your shoulders. Keep in mind that you are a strong, beautiful young lady who is loved by many. Surround yourself with people that care about you and no one else. You deserve more than that. I love you. I miss you. I"m here for you. I'm praying for you.

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30 DLC: Day 13- The person you hate most/caused you the most pain

To the person I hate most/caused me the most pain:

There's actually two of you, but I don't hate you guys. You both, however, did cause me a lot of pain. Each of you know that I was hurt after everything y'all did.

One of you caused me emotional pain by ignoring me and treating me like I wasn't worth anything. We've discussed it over and over and over, and I finally think you understand just how much you hurt me. You've even told me that you're shocked that I still talk to you. While you'll probably never get another chance to be as close to me as we used to be, you're fun to talk to about random dumb stuff. I'm no longer vulnerable with you because that's how I got hurt so bad the first time.

The other one was quite the opposite by verbally abusing me. You told me your darkest secrets and even threatened your own life at times. You constantly kept me worried about your safety and since I was the only one who knew about your issues, I was trapped into constantly talking to you and making sure you were okay. You got angry when I finally told someone close to you to keep an eye on you since I didn't live near you and couldn't do it myself. You cussed me out, and told me I was a traitor and that I was worthless. Even earlier than that when we tried dating, you text me one day calling me a bitch and saying I wasn't worth a dime. You accused me of everything under the sun and finally broke me down by saying you couldn't even believe you were talking to me. While I don't hate you, you won't get a second chance to be close to me like we were before.

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30 DLC: Day 8- Your Favorite Internet Friend

To my favorite internet friends:

"I love all of you. Thank you for being there and supporting me when most of the time I really am not worth it, I don’t think you know how truly grateful I am for it. You guys always seem to make me feel a bit better, whether it’s by posting a funny picture or telling me something that makes me smile. I love knowing that there is a community of people on here that I can relate to with everything and that understand and will listen to me. I hope all of you can become happy/happier in your lives because you really deserve it. Even when you delete your [facebook/blog] and you’re all old and have a family and a spouse and when you’re old and retired I hope you really really enjoy all of it. I know I will remember all of you because you have a very special place in my heart. I would name you guys, but again there are a lot and I’m afraid I would forget someone important. But basically you guys know who you are! And if you ever need anything, I am here for you as you’ve been here for me to talk about anything or vent or share a secret with."

The only person I'd say something about aside from all of you as a whole is Aaron, or AV. I've only met you once and it was crazy how we found each other after that first run-in. You are the sweetest and nicest guy and I wish the best of luck to you in all of your future endeavors. I love your sense of humor and I can't wait to see you again in real life! Don't forget me when you get old and move away. As you know, I'm always avaliable to talk!

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30 DLC: Day 4- Your Sibling (or closest relative)

To my siblings:

D,

You are seriously the best. I love you! I can tell you anything and I know you'll always be there for me should I need you. You make me laugh and we have the best times whenever we're together, whether we're watching game 7, playing with your kids, or driving to random places. You're like a mentor to me and you offer really good advice. I don't know what I'd do without you or what I'd do if you didn't live nearby. You are beautiful inside and out. I run to you when I wanna escape the house and I'm grateful that you're my big sister.

V,

You are such an inspiration and role model. You mean so much to me and I know we've had our fair share of differences over the years but I love you so much. You always give amazing advice and inspire me to follow my dreams. I loved spending time alone with you in Boston and seeing the way you lived your life. It really made me wanna get out there and start living mine. Though you are physically far away, you are close to my heart and simply a phone call away should I need anything. You are beyond intelligent and beautiful and I'm so glad I can call you my sister.

A,

My only brother and my big brother at that... I always felt like you were supposed to be the protective older brother, but I have yet to see that side of you. I love you to death and you have always been my best friend. I tell you almost everything and I know you can relate because, well we live under the same roof. I know you always have my back, even when it's not necessary to take sides, and I definitely have yours. Thank you for all the great times we've had through the years, playing Legos and Lava People with me... I know I was probably the annoying younger sister, but I appreciate the relationship we had. Not many brothers and sisters that we know/knew are/were as close as us and that's just a few reasons why I'm lucky to have you as a big brother.

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30DLC: Day 3- Your Parents

To my parents,

You guys are great. Sometimes I feel you're overbearing and you take the jokes and sarcasm way too far, but y'all are cool. Mom, I appreciate everything you've done for me, but I wish would just r e l a x and take a moment to slow down and enjoy life. I feel like you're always on the go. Dad, I appreciate everything you have done for me, but I wish you'd believe me when I say some guys are just my friends. I know you were once their age and I know you know how they think, but did it ever occur to you that they aren't interested? I know I'm your little girl and I know you're just trying to protect me, but I have to grow up at some point and you won't always be able to control who I hang out with. You and mom have both instilled good values and morals in me and I carry myself in a way that would hopefully make you guys proud. You both have taught me a lot and I've grown a lot from hearing your stories and learning from my mistakes... tell more stories. Though I may not want to sit and hear them and it may not look like I'm listening, I am. I apply what y'all tell me in my life and if they help with what I'm going through, the stories are much appreciated. If the stories don't help at that particular moment in time, I keep it stored in my mind just in case I need help with something else.

 I love you guys.

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30DLC: Day 1- Your Best Friend

Don't be offended or take it personally if you're not listed in my letters. Especially to my friends. It's nearly impossible to write this letter seeing as I consider many of you best friends, each for your own reason. In order to avoid conflict and controversy among my girlfriends, I'm not going to write a best friend letter to any girls. I'm only going to write one best friend and it's to one of my best guy friends. 

To my best friend Javarious:

You're seriously everything I could have asked for in a best friend and more.. You've always stuck by my side and helped me through anything I've needed help with. You're honest, trustworthy, and genuine. You make me laugh, cheer me up when I'm down, and make me smile when I don't want to.

I miss you a lot and I wish you would come visit me every once in a while, because talking to you every now and then isn't enough. I have SO many things to tell you, but you've been super busy lately, recording and producing, and I know that's your passion so I'm trying not to interfere.

We've been through so much, way too much to even discuss or reminisce over right now, but everything we've gone through has strengthened our relationship in its own way. Remember Loren Elise and Terrence??

I've learned a lot from you, and even though we don't talk as much as we used to, I know you'll always be there for me, no matter the time, place, or distance.

I love you bestie and I appreciate everything you've ever done for me. Thank you for being the best friend a girl could ask for.

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Beginning of the 30 DLC

Starting tomorrow, I'm going to try the 30 Day Letter Challenge... This should be interesting though because as you can tell, I don't update everyday.

This is a challenge that requires you to write a letter each day to a certain person/group of people.

EDIT (06/13/2013):

I reverted a lot of these posts and many other ones that I had to draft due to the fact that they're coming from a young-minded, high school woman who did not lay out her thoughts very well.

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